I sit writing this blog with a broken, yet hopeful heart.
My eyes and body are sore and tired from the tears.
Our family is missing someone very special..
We got to our SDA appointment and were sitting in the car waiting for our time to be closer so we could go into the building.
I was so nervous in the car that we should be inside.
We sat and waited and were assured Sasha would be out for us any minute.
At 3pm, our appointment time, we went inside b/c we just couldn't sit there any longer.
About 3:20pm Sasha came down the stairs and called us up.
We went into the same office we were in last time with the same young lady.
Only this time, things were different.
Something was wrong.
You could feel it in the room.
We asked what is going on and they said we can't find her in the system.
You can't find her??
We stopped right ther and prayed.
God, please help us!
Help them find her!
We gave them the info we had and they looked in the paper files and came back with the news..
She is not ready for adoption.
Someone dropped the ball somewhere.
She has been in the orphanage for 5 years and their papers show that she's only been in the registry for 6 months.
They are required to be in the registry for 1 year before becoming available for adoption.
Her papers were sent in 2 years ago but lost in the mix somewhere and that means she can't be adopted yet.
Our hearts broke right there.
The tears flowed and the begging began.
Please help her!
We are here and we want to adopt her!
There has to be something SOMEONE can do to help us get her!
They know she's been in the orphanage longer than that.
Why can't they fix that?
Can anyone make an exception?
We cried, begged, pleaded all to no avail.
We went to the highest official at the SDA and she said there is nothing she can do.
They did tell us that she will be available at the end of the summer and we can come back to get her but that we'd have to start all over on our papers and all.
They said they have a couple of other girls a little bit older that we can see if we'd like that are paper ready.
We just wanted our daughter.
She has already become a part of our family.
As crazy as it sounds to already love her and miss her and want her...
So, we decided that maybe this was God's will for us to save another little girl.
They had 2 girls from the same orphanage both a few months older than her.
One had a sister and we don't want to break up siblings nor can we handle it if they tell us no again.
We've had our hearts broken enough on this trip.
So, we said tell us about this other little girl.
They showed us her picture and she is little and blonde and just a cutie.
It was hard to trust them to open our hearts again and wonder is everything really ready on her?
The assured us it was.
So, we accepted the referral and we will come back to get the official paperwork on her tomorrow and go to meet her on Friday.
Now, we are of course wondering why God allowed this to happen and yet at the same time trusting him.
We know he has a plan and maybe it was for us to fall in love with Anastasia so that we would fight for her and come back to get her and in the mean time as our hearts are still open for another girl that he chose this girl for us now.
We have asked for all the details of exactly when she'll be ready and how much it will cost us to come back and get her.
We can't give up on her!
So, we will work and do what we can to get her too!
You may think we are crazy and that is ok.
You may think we are out of our minds and that is ok too.
You may think what are they doing?
Through thick and thin,
good and bad,
easy and hard.
Funny thing is that this afternoon just before the appointment I told Bryan I had a dream that I was pregnant with our 6th child.
Maybe that was God birthing that child of my heart ahead of time!
I will ask you now that if you have anything negative to say, please keep it to yourself.
We are not seeking to gain your approval, Only God's.
That is all that matters to us!
We will trust, follow and obey, no matter how curvy the road may be.
So, please pray for our family.
For all of our children!
Pray for Anastasia as she waits.
Pray for us as we navigate the process again.
Pray for the finances.
Pray for the little girl we are going to meet on Friday.
Her name is Katherine.
She is said to have 2 older siblings grown that never come to see her.
Father declared dead by the courts and mother's rights terminated in 2009.
Pray that God will make a way where there seems to be no way for these girls.
Maybe just maybe they are best friends and that's why God opened our heart to one and then the other?
God knows and that is all that matters!
Thank you all for your prayers and support.
What a journey!